I’m struggling with blogging lately. I’m struggling finding the words that explain what has been going on lately. I’m struggling finding the words that explain how I feel.

Part of it is because so much of what is going on is not my story to share. Part of it is because some of it is so deeply personal. Part of it is because I just can’t find the words.

I hate that blogging is a struggle because it is usually my outlet. It’s usually my way of dealing with the stress. But right now…I can’t find the words.

January and February were so hard. Actually, they were traumatic. I welcomed March with open arms even though it comes with some big changes. But after a meeting with Courtney’s school today, not feeling confident March will be much better.

I’m hoping things calm down soon. I’m hoping things become more manageable. I need things to turn around.

In the meantime, I’ll just remind myself that sometimes it’s ok not to be ok.