Oh Courtney, if only you could tell us. If only you could tell us what to advocate for. If only we knew your thoughts.

Are you happy at this school?

Are they meeting your needs?

Should we fight for you to stay?

I know as your mom, I’m supposed to know what’s best for you, but I’m at a loss.

I’ve been asked what my gut feels. In all honesty, Courtney, I don’t know.

I’ve watched you struggle.

I see the bruises on your arms.

I see the scars on my body.

I’ve seen the data and I’ve heard the concerns.

But, Courtney, I wish you could tell me. Because later this week, when we meet with your team and we get to the part of the meeting where they are going to bring up placement considerations, where they are going to tell us what they think is best. I want to know that we are fighting for what you want.

Oh Courtney, if only you could tell us.