I read one of my blog posts from last year and it was about a quote my brother shared with me. “It’s ok to not be ok”. I’m glad it popped up in my memories. I needed this reminder.
Yesterday while at school I got a phone call from the girls school district. I was expecting one from Alyssa’s school but it ended up being the nurse from Courtney’s school. She was acting as if her tummy was bothering her. They wanted to know if there was anything they could do to help with possible constipation, I gave them some suggestions and then I went back to my students who were in music therapy.
I’m glad they were in the middle of a special. I’m glad I had another therapist in the room. I’m glad my paras were in the room . I’m glad because though I physically was in the room, my brain shut down. I emotionally hit a point where I couldn’t even think. (Fortunately once music therapy was over, I was ready to teach again.)
I hit this point because sometimes life is just hard.
I’m not ok right now. I have one child with autism whose aggression is increasing and another child who has now had 2 months of consistent meltdowns at school. Stuff at work is piling up, stuff for my courses is piling up and stuff at home is piling up.
I’m not ok.
I forgot, though, that sometimes it is ok to be in that spot. It’s normal to hit that point. It’s ok to not be ok.
I can’t let myself stay at this point for long, though. I don’t like how it feels. I also know that we always get through these rough spots and we usually come out stronger on the other side.